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WOW Time passed 8D
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No, SERIOUSLY, time passes SO FAST........
Honestly I didn't noticed till I just check on my last journal post & it was August 2014, LAST YEAR!!!
Well, TBH it's been a hectic 2015 for me, balancing real life work with my art again... & new year 2016 is FAST APPROACHING already!!!
On summary, my colouring skills definitely need some definitive style of sorts... My linearts need to be more defined too, though I gotta figure something out for soft materials instead XD
God knows what's in store for me this coming year, but I'm very much hopeful that it'll be another one of strive & faith-testing again. For the new year, I pray that I'll achieve another milestone in my art as I plan to do more than just working on my manga items (again. It's endless for now, I'm sorry to say...)
But hey! In the mean time, you guys can check out my other pages which I'll randomly pop in!! You know, in case I post random stuffs again... & I got random stuffs at Facebook, Instagram, Tumblr & even Pinterest (for references' sake) if you are in the mood for it
Facebook = www.facebook.com/SpyG
Instagram = www.instagram.com/spyg/
Pinterest = www.pinterest.com/graceyong/
Tumblr = spygryphon.tumblr.com
Honestly I didn't noticed till I just check on my last journal post & it was August 2014, LAST YEAR!!!
Well, TBH it's been a hectic 2015 for me, balancing real life work with my art again... & new year 2016 is FAST APPROACHING already!!!
On summary, my colouring skills definitely need some definitive style of sorts... My linearts need to be more defined too, though I gotta figure something out for soft materials instead XD
God knows what's in store for me this coming year, but I'm very much hopeful that it'll be another one of strive & faith-testing again. For the new year, I pray that I'll achieve another milestone in my art as I plan to do more than just working on my manga items (again. It's endless for now, I'm sorry to say...)
But hey! In the mean time, you guys can check out my other pages which I'll randomly pop in!! You know, in case I post random stuffs again... & I got random stuffs at Facebook, Instagram, Tumblr & even Pinterest (for references' sake) if you are in the mood for it
Facebook = www.facebook.com/SpyG
Instagram = www.instagram.com/spyg/
Pinterest = www.pinterest.com/graceyong/
Tumblr = spygryphon.tumblr.com
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I HAVE A FB COMMISSION PAGE!!!
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Hi ho all! It's been ages again!
Currently my boyfriend & I are busy working in our new hobby shop these past few months since its opening May earlier... It's not easy, & to be honest we need a lot of money to help improving our shop continuously. But it's definitely still holding on tight, all thanks to our loyal customers who wanted us to stay on for the sake of their hobbies! XD
So right now, I'm intending to do more on my part to support the shop in my way, which is to do MORE COMMISSIONS!!
I just launched my new FB commission page, so in case you guys wanna commission me for anything or any request, just PM me on #The Staring Room at Facebook~! ^^
On the page I also stashed in my progresses on previous works etc, so check it out!!
Currently my boyfriend & I are busy working in our new hobby shop these past few months since its opening May earlier... It's not easy, & to be honest we need a lot of money to help improving our shop continuously. But it's definitely still holding on tight, all thanks to our loyal customers who wanted us to stay on for the sake of their hobbies! XD
So right now, I'm intending to do more on my part to support the shop in my way, which is to do MORE COMMISSIONS!!
I just launched my new FB commission page, so in case you guys wanna commission me for anything or any request, just PM me on #The Staring Room at Facebook~! ^^
On the page I also stashed in my progresses on previous works etc, so check it out!!
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Freelance Or Not to Freelance......
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It's been a very long time (again) since my last journal... But then again I was so busy for many reasons...
First off, I was too busy trying to get some proper income, or some financial traction... I've worked at shops inside a shopping mall for over a year, & at a new animation studio (of sorts, as it's still trying to figure out what does it wanna do in the future) for over 7 months. So far, what I've earned isn't much after you reduced the amount I had to pay, for rent, necessities & also entertainment. Not forgetting that my bf had no means of income since 2 years ago as he has to help look after his father who had a stroke 2 years ago, who's now unable to work or even move properly. I helped out as best as I can in the house, & in terms of supporting my bf financially when he needs it. To be honest, expenses around here still raise like crazy & we can't seemed to earn enough EVER.
Now a new issue arises. I realized that working in an office is not my entire cup of tea, plus with hovering eyes above your shoulders all the time really tenses my nerves. Worse still when you are dealing with entrepeneurs who want to open an animation studio without proper prior experiences. Worst is when they expect you to create something GREAT, CHEAP & FAST, which, to us working artists of any sort, is virtually impossible. What's more, my position inside the studio has changed several times during my tenancy there.
I was first the main Storyboard & Concept Artist for the first 3 months or so, mainly dealing with ANYTHING in Adobe PHOTOSHOP, & I already mentioned to my employers that I wasn't trained in animation before & lacking experience in that field. Somehow, they suddenly change their prospect after getting many 'inspirations' from recent popular cartoon series, hired some new hands, & suddenly I was demoted as an assistant Storyboard Artist, & we are doing EVERYTHING in Adobe Flash, which I have no experience using, albeit that it's somewhat similar to Adobe AfterEffects on some parts. & later I also became the assistant Background Artist to another coworker, & we are also doing everything in Adobe Flash.
I don't mind learning new things at all, but my employers already expecting me to master Flash in just a month, & expecting me to complete my tasks as fast & good as my other experienced coworkers. I'm flattered that they think highly of me when it comes to how good I am with my own work, but SERIOUSLY, you really can't help but to notice if you are being tossed about between priorities like a pinball. What's more my pay's considered to be the lowest if compared to my coworkers, & really, all these trouble ain't worth it. So soon enough I just can't help but to suspect something's up. I decided to resign from the studio.
At the very same time, I also realized that I have been lagging behind my personal goals for quite some time now. Life just made lots of distractions all the time these past few years, I'm somewhat suspecting it could be because of my lack of vigilance & determination that has been causing the massive setback. Either way, I feel like I owe it to myself to continue on with my personal goals -- To finally finish my stories & mangas that I have been working on for more than 7 years, & to build a much better portfolio plus going back to basics, painting/drawing using traditional media. Sadly I don't have enough space at all for doing traditional works, so I have to go for the first then.
Now here comes the MAIN BIG QUESTION, should I go FREELANCE? I know I have yet to build a proper circle of connections, but I have already started some months ago. I'm considering doing 2 jobs at the same time, working for money & the other freelance for art. I know for sure to do that, I'm likely gonna need to start opening up my options online. I know for sure as well that it won't be easy, but I shall keep on working on it then.
What do you think? Any suggestions?
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Open for Commissions =D
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My portfolio -- graceyong.daportfolio.com/
Commissions are available
If you are interested to see how your characters or any other subjects look in my style or through my skills, please PM me personally through Note, or through e-mail ^^ If you wish to donate, it'll be much appreciated, I'm just like any other struggling artist-in-the-making who's still honing her skills in art. XD"
Currently working as a home-based part-time storyboard artist for a local creative studio working on educational programes for a local satelite TV company.
Personally I'm still trying to find out more of any styles that would suit my personality, long way to go, but hey, practises are a must & will make perfect if I continuously practising. & I would like to gain more experience in the creative & artistic sector, & definitely need to train more discipline in time-management.........
Currently practising self-improvement in skills & techniques.
Others:
Had one of my personal works published by a local publishing company, and among of the books published in conjuction to Malaysia's 50th Anniversary.
Commissions are available
If you are interested to see how your characters or any other subjects look in my style or through my skills, please PM me personally through Note, or through e-mail ^^ If you wish to donate, it'll be much appreciated, I'm just like any other struggling artist-in-the-making who's still honing her skills in art. XD"Currently working as a home-based part-time storyboard artist for a local creative studio working on educational programes for a local satelite TV company.
Personally I'm still trying to find out more of any styles that would suit my personality, long way to go, but hey, practises are a must & will make perfect if I continuously practising. & I would like to gain more experience in the creative & artistic sector, & definitely need to train more discipline in time-management.........
Currently practising self-improvement in skills & techniques.
Others:
Had one of my personal works published by a local publishing company, and among of the books published in conjuction to Malaysia's 50th Anniversary.
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Feb 2012
8 min read
My Porfolio -- graceyong.daportfolio.com
Commissions are available
If you are interested to see how your characters or any other subjects look in my style or through my skills, please PM me personally through Note, or through e-mail ^^ If you wish to donate, it'll be much appreciated, I'm just like any other struggling artist-in-the-making who's still honing her skills in art. XD"
PS: You are not obligated to read what are written between the lines below & you may skipped EVERYTHING till the very last paragraph... XD"
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I know full well I'm not supposed to 'complain' or sigh about any hardship I'm enduring in the recent months, as I know full well how much harder many other folks all around the world are suffering as well in their daily lives. But, I guess that's makes us all human, & that it's best to just let the bad feelings go, so that our hearts can receive more good & wonderful things happening still on a day-to-day basis as well I tend to prefer to see, or to keep telling myself to see, a glass being half-full instead of half-empty, even though, every single day I was 'forced' to think the latter.
I'm certainly not like those who just rant & complain & tell EVERYTHING & ANYTHING that's happening their lives on blogs or Facebook or whatever. Yeah, sure, I got my own Facebook page, but I mostly & solely using it as a means to stay connected to my loved ones, my dear relatives & dear close friends living abroad. I admit, it's very convenient, but one must practise restrain when it comes to just telling everyone in your Friends list what you are doing and what you're feeling every single day, & later have them comment & complain & rant back at you without reading & understanding properly the issue that you mentioned... I find it rather... Improper, as well as lack of privacy... Well, we all know that, so there's no need to elaborate. I don't believe in indulging your desire for attention through online blogs or any other means.
DeviantArt, however, has been part of my life since nearly a decade ago, and thus, part of myself & my own conscious. Even though I'm not submitting any works to show the world that I'm still alive, I still regardless come back, to renew my own desire & need for self-encouragement & perseverance, even though I know well that I'll never reach the level of skills or passion that many of the very talented & hard-working folks in DeviantArt.
And thus, it also gives me the (self) permission to just say what's on my mind in the Journal, instead of just divulging every single little thing on my Facebook page. *shrugs*
Life's been very frustrating for me & my boyfriend & his family, financially, mentally & physically. I'll say definitely more so for his family really. His father had an accident happened on our anniversary last October, & suffered a stroke, though we have no idea what truly happened because he was driving his cab & was totally alone in a rather secluded route & there was around 6 hours worth of delayed time before we found out that he had an accident. There were just too many things happened from November 2011 onwards to now for me to just explain in details here, but one thing's for sure, he is now in hospital care, with his mother constantly looking after him, even staying over at the hospital night after night to care for him. But even after looking for treatments & for both physio and occupational therapy for over 2 months, his father still show minimal signs of improvement & recovery. Currently, he's admitted into a hospital that's recommended by another stroke patient who had the same symptoms as him & actually recovered, that provides series of acupuncture & physio therapies.
& I had to admit, it has given a tremendous toil onto the family, physically as it was tedious to look after a 80kg man who worked out before & has heavy bones, mentally as it was hard to understand & frustrated as to why he has difficulty recovering & that he's frequently testing their patience over & over again, & of course financially as well, as we had to buy supplement formulated milk & many other appliances or supplies with hopes that it'll aid him recover better. But so far, it shows very little effect, and really honestly, it's stupendously tiring & exhausting to watch the family who're at least 10 times much more tired & frustrated than me!!
And here's the added cherry on top of the bad-tasting ice-cream. Just very recently, or more like the day after Valentines, our apartment was burglarised... Even though the burglar didn't took more than 4k worth of belongings both from my boyfriend's family & mine, but still, once again we felt the helplessness against the strings of occurences that seemed endless & constantly testing our patience & perseverance happened since late last year... Honestly this has been going on ever since my boyfriend and I started officially dating even, including the 2 other minor accidents (which weren't any of our fault at all but the other drivers) and none of these similar occurences ever happened to us before... I don't mean to signify something superstitious like a typical over-zealot Chinese, but really, WHAT THE HECK?! OTL
Really, now?!! We are already struggling every single day to help his father recovering, & we're already running low on funds greatly. & THIS happened?!! It's just TOO MESSED UP!! I'll be honest, I don't think I did enough at all to support their efforts, as all I did was going to work as a part-timer in a nearby anime shop, but this shop is going to close by March already, & so, I don't even have much of a proper job at all!!! (Although my current supervisor is one of the best & friendliest folks I'll ever meet around here, so kudos to her for working hard keeping the store running for so long, & I'll miss your company tremendously!! XD) I have to look for another proper job again...
I just don't really understand WHY this has to happen!!! & at the very WRONG time as well!! Those who're religious would say, "This is a test from God himself." I kinda prefer not to think that way for the moment, or for the coming near future......... Or something along the lines of 'life sucks', but really, like I mentioned earlier, however naive it may be, I still believe in the saying of 'seeing the glass half-full'. I know my dad said, "Thank goodness no one was physically hurt. & that's something to be thankful of." I'll agree with him on that, no doubt...
Now, if only I wish that the world doesn't just say, "Money is everything & you need money for everything."
If only I can just eliminate that saying/quote & the attitude & the personalities that associated with it... IF ONLY............... WHY CAN'T WE DESTROY THAT?!! OAO" I really still dont't understand why people will just commit crimes or work so darn hard to the point that they ignore everything else including their loved ones for the sake of getting more money when they should be satisfied & compromise with what they have already?! Yeah, I know. Probably a dumb question about human nature, but you get the idea, & the dillema... I STILL really, truly believe, that we humans can really live simply and that we can just compromise what we have right now & strive to make things better & more comfortable!
Really, why, people, WHY???
Sigh... It is pretty useless to question human nature...... Most of the time, you'll never get the answer you're looking for... Sigh... OTL
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\/ (Profile pic) Condolence to myself for losing my Panasonic Lumix FZ100 to the freaking burglary happening just recently... Sigh... Though it's around RM 2k, but I don't feel so pain coz it's not really that much of a good camera afterall, just somewhat tiring as I've tried to practise the settings on it......... XD" Yeah, this is a great opportunity to get a MUCH better camera... It's somewhat of a minor blessing from tragedy...
Right, that'll be all, yorosku onigaisimas, & I hope that you will support me in my continuous endearvors as a struggling artist XD" & I do pray, that I'll reach my full potential as an artist & as a person in this new year
Provided that the world is NOT destroyed by the end of the year... Gahahahaa~! XD"
Commissions are available
If you are interested to see how your characters or any other subjects look in my style or through my skills, please PM me personally through Note, or through e-mail ^^ If you wish to donate, it'll be much appreciated, I'm just like any other struggling artist-in-the-making who's still honing her skills in art. XD"PS: You are not obligated to read what are written between the lines below & you may skipped EVERYTHING till the very last paragraph... XD"
_________________________________________________________________________
I know full well I'm not supposed to 'complain' or sigh about any hardship I'm enduring in the recent months, as I know full well how much harder many other folks all around the world are suffering as well in their daily lives. But, I guess that's makes us all human, & that it's best to just let the bad feelings go, so that our hearts can receive more good & wonderful things happening still on a day-to-day basis as well
I tend to prefer to see, or to keep telling myself to see, a glass being half-full instead of half-empty, even though, every single day I was 'forced' to think the latter. I'm certainly not like those who just rant & complain & tell EVERYTHING & ANYTHING that's happening their lives on blogs or Facebook or whatever. Yeah, sure, I got my own Facebook page, but I mostly & solely using it as a means to stay connected to my loved ones, my dear relatives & dear close friends living abroad. I admit, it's very convenient, but one must practise restrain when it comes to just telling everyone in your Friends list what you are doing and what you're feeling every single day, & later have them comment & complain & rant back at you without reading & understanding properly the issue that you mentioned... I find it rather... Improper, as well as lack of privacy... Well, we all know that, so there's no need to elaborate. I don't believe in indulging your desire for attention through online blogs or any other means.
DeviantArt, however, has been part of my life since nearly a decade ago, and thus, part of myself & my own conscious. Even though I'm not submitting any works to show the world that I'm still alive, I still regardless come back, to renew my own desire & need for self-encouragement & perseverance, even though I know well that I'll never reach the level of skills or passion that many of the very talented & hard-working folks in DeviantArt.
And thus, it also gives me the (self) permission to just say what's on my mind in the Journal, instead of just divulging every single little thing on my Facebook page. *shrugs*
Life's been very frustrating for me & my boyfriend & his family, financially, mentally & physically. I'll say definitely more so for his family really. His father had an accident happened on our anniversary last October, & suffered a stroke, though we have no idea what truly happened because he was driving his cab & was totally alone in a rather secluded route & there was around 6 hours worth of delayed time before we found out that he had an accident. There were just too many things happened from November 2011 onwards to now for me to just explain in details here, but one thing's for sure, he is now in hospital care, with his mother constantly looking after him, even staying over at the hospital night after night to care for him. But even after looking for treatments & for both physio and occupational therapy for over 2 months, his father still show minimal signs of improvement & recovery. Currently, he's admitted into a hospital that's recommended by another stroke patient who had the same symptoms as him & actually recovered, that provides series of acupuncture & physio therapies.
& I had to admit, it has given a tremendous toil onto the family, physically as it was tedious to look after a 80kg man who worked out before & has heavy bones, mentally as it was hard to understand & frustrated as to why he has difficulty recovering & that he's frequently testing their patience over & over again, & of course financially as well, as we had to buy supplement formulated milk & many other appliances or supplies with hopes that it'll aid him recover better. But so far, it shows very little effect, and really honestly, it's stupendously tiring & exhausting to watch the family who're at least 10 times much more tired & frustrated than me!!
And here's the added cherry on top of the bad-tasting ice-cream. Just very recently, or more like the day after Valentines, our apartment was burglarised... Even though the burglar didn't took more than 4k worth of belongings both from my boyfriend's family & mine, but still, once again we felt the helplessness against the strings of occurences that seemed endless & constantly testing our patience & perseverance happened since late last year... Honestly this has been going on ever since my boyfriend and I started officially dating even, including the 2 other minor accidents (which weren't any of our fault at all but the other drivers) and none of these similar occurences ever happened to us before... I don't mean to signify something superstitious like a typical over-zealot Chinese, but really, WHAT THE HECK?! OTL
Really, now?!! We are already struggling every single day to help his father recovering, & we're already running low on funds greatly. & THIS happened?!! It's just TOO MESSED UP!! I'll be honest, I don't think I did enough at all to support their efforts, as all I did was going to work as a part-timer in a nearby anime shop, but this shop is going to close by March already, & so, I don't even have much of a proper job at all!!! (Although my current supervisor is one of the best & friendliest folks I'll ever meet around here, so kudos to her for working hard keeping the store running for so long, & I'll miss your company tremendously!! XD) I have to look for another proper job again...
I just don't really understand WHY this has to happen!!! & at the very WRONG time as well!! Those who're religious would say, "This is a test from God himself." I kinda prefer not to think that way for the moment, or for the coming near future......... Or something along the lines of 'life sucks', but really, like I mentioned earlier, however naive it may be, I still believe in the saying of 'seeing the glass half-full'. I know my dad said, "Thank goodness no one was physically hurt. & that's something to be thankful of." I'll agree with him on that, no doubt...
Now, if only I wish that the world doesn't just say, "Money is everything & you need money for everything."
If only I can just eliminate that saying/quote & the attitude & the personalities that associated with it... IF ONLY............... WHY CAN'T WE DESTROY THAT?!! OAO" I really still dont't understand why people will just commit crimes or work so darn hard to the point that they ignore everything else including their loved ones for the sake of getting more money when they should be satisfied & compromise with what they have already?! Yeah, I know. Probably a dumb question about human nature, but you get the idea, & the dillema... I STILL really, truly believe, that we humans can really live simply and that we can just compromise what we have right now & strive to make things better & more comfortable!
Really, why, people, WHY???
Sigh... It is pretty useless to question human nature...... Most of the time, you'll never get the answer you're looking for... Sigh... OTL
__________________________________________________________________
\/ (Profile pic) Condolence to myself for losing my Panasonic Lumix FZ100 to the freaking burglary happening just recently... Sigh... Though it's around RM 2k, but I don't feel so pain coz it's not really that much of a good camera afterall, just somewhat tiring as I've tried to practise the settings on it......... XD" Yeah, this is a great opportunity to get a MUCH better camera... It's somewhat of a minor blessing from tragedy...
Right, that'll be all, yorosku onigaisimas, & I hope that you will support me in my continuous endearvors as a struggling artist XD" & I do pray, that I'll reach my full potential as an artist & as a person in this new year
Provided that the world is NOT destroyed by the end of the year... Gahahahaa~! XD"
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